Monday, December 31, 2012

saying farewell to 2012

You know it will be a tough year when you're counting down "7......6......5" as the ball drops, while being held up by a nurse because you haven't gotten your "land legs" back from labor, as you try to gingerly use the restroom, gown flapping uselessly around you. And moments later your new, tiny baby gets wheeled away. Not one of my favorite life moments.

Oh, 2012, you had your enjoyable moments but as a whole you sure weren't easy. It was a year kicked off by having my newborn baby stay in the NICU for the first 7 days of his life...something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. And the year that followed was a year of waiting. It was our last year in Hawaii and our last year as a military family. And the time seemed to not. move. I felt like we were hanging in limbo- seeing the new chapter that lay ahead and not being able to get there fast enough. It was also a year of painful goodbyes. Many, many good friends left within weeks of each other, dramatically changing our social life and support system for our last 6 months- several of whom were part of the small, core group of "best friends." Not to mention raising two boys very close in age without family to be a part of the crucial support system. 2012 was a lonely, hard, slow moment in time.

I'm grateful to not have to repeat this year.

But if I'm going to be honest with myself, it held some beautiful moments, too- redemption of some precious friendships, reconciling with the fact that life that looked a little different than I wanted it to, being able to put into practice FAITH unlike I've ever had before, and expanding our family to become a family of 4...and the joys that come with raising kids. I love watching the "firsts." Or watching any moment of growth- and knowing that I was a part of it. It's fulfilling. And while I miss my teaching career very, very much, I'm grateful beyond words to have this season of raising my children. I remind myself often that there will be other seasons for me to teach; there won't be seasons that can repeat these days in life. Days of babies, little hands, slobbery kisses, growing conversations, and awe for life around them. Thanks, Lord, for this opportunity. I'm aware that it is precious.

So it is with open arms that I welcome 2013! Bring it on. We are out of the military, back on the mainland, and the second day of the new year holds a home inspection. A year of friends/family, new jobs, and buying our first house looks pretty stinking great from here. I can't wait to get a closer look. :):)

Sending love from our family to yours!

1 comment:

  1. We both have had reasons to sign off on 2012 forever, but we will both look back on this year and see evidence that our lives would never have become what they will be without surviving these trying times.

    Happy New Year, Crider...and best wishes for you and yours in 2013.